TIME-OUTTTTT!!!!!

so yea.

it must be a new moon

got the beast all out.

in a drought...

sex is on my mind 25/8/366

shittt got me committing playa fouls.

got me apologizing to girls.

being extra nice.

i even blew up this jawns phone.

rekindling old flings.

a nigga almost in double bonus.

i'll be teched up if i start M-bating.

...im going to get a hooker.

or put myself on craigslist.

match.com

shit.

shit i might as well start here.

come.

guuhhhlll

you know you wants some o' this!

you know you want blow my whistle.

some sexytime.

rock my mic.

come be my sexy plumber.

special massage?

suhky suhky?

phucky phucky?

5 dolla?

hmmmm?

c'mon.

bringyosmexayass.

:|

yum yum.

yes.

i smoked yesterday.

water bombs.

did like 4 of em.

im still high at this moment.

crazzzyyy mannggg.

but yea.

i feel like im in TiVo.

cause like errthang goes so fast.

yet. time is sooooo slow.

wow.

i feel like the flash.

but yea.

i smoked like a half.

between me and my boy.

so thats alot.

especially waterbombs.

cause yea.

all vaporss bayybeeee.

but i just wanted to let y'all know.

im high.

:)

Good Times!

Da dum da dum da dum da dum.

iPhone screen is crrraaacckkkeed.

GOOD TIMES!

i just lost my room key.

GOOD TIMES!

dropped out one of my classes.

GOOD TIMES!

geeeettinng drunk on tuesdays.

GOOD TIMES!

i got dirty suitemates!

GOOD TIMES!

allergies is fucked uppppp.

GOOD TIMES!

something something somethanggg!

GOOOOODD TIMMMEESSSS!!!!!

aren't i lucky i got em.

dum dum dum dum dum da.

GOOD TIMEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS......YEA!

Men are the new women.

lol my life i tell you.

why some nigga tryna fight me over some chick that i dont want or aint even mine?

girl'n ass niggas i tell you!

so he dated this chick. they lightswitch luvvin.

and she like me.

so....how it happened

me and her chill

just met her, gave her a chance, and that was that,

we got the same class n shit so we did a paper together.

sooo anyways this nigga run up in her room(mind you there not "together")

and finds a box of condoms.

WHOA!

lol yea i said that too.

come to find out she fuckin some other nigga and got caught in a lie and threw my name in the mix so she could hide the other niggas name.

sooo this niggas spazzin' sayin i disrespected him since i know him.

i know OF this nigga.

saying since i know him I SHOULD'VE ASKED HIM!!!

overcontrollin'assnigga.

he aint my peoples and i aint tryna fuck, his girl is.

:|

girls aint nothing but trouble. i tell you

oh. kinda forgot to mention.

this nigga 6'7, 230+

:|

i got hands, but would've carved that nigga like a thanksgiving turkey.

fuck that.

Valentine's day massacre.

So, my previous thoughts of valentine's day jumped out the motherfucking window.

and you ask why?

For once again my worthless father, has become even more worthless.

Lmao i guess since theres so much love in the air, its a great basis to tell your son(me) that he has a brother. I cannot believe this motherfucker.

I've lived a life as a lie?

Had a brother who's older then me.

Lived down the street from me my whole life?

All the days i asked why am i a only child, can i have a bro or sis, i actually did?

Or how i was told to "tell everything, i'll never hide a thing, i love you son."

Fucking hypocrite.

Its a fucking wrap.

I have no feelings for this "brother" of mine, for i went 19 years told an only child.

The mentality of an only child.

The life of a only child.

I do me.

Did me.

And done me my whole fucking life.

Came out fucking great. 

So for this nigga to txt me.

"hey i'm andre, and i'm your brother"

Felt surreal.

lol my life like a fucking movie i swear.

But hey.

Its valentine's day.

Spread the motherfucking love.

reformation.

Well....i lost the battle with myself.

but i left it all on the table.

i've always aspired to do such with and acclaim myself to a new goal.

it has been postponed.

i did not do my best last semester and therefor suffer the consequences now

i tried extremely hard to bite my pride, somewhat lower myself, and open to others and i finally did. and all was going well. until i was .01 away for being able to do such.

i tried to hide it. but when i was called upon at the meeting.

the first question asked was. what's your GPA.

i swear. everything went black. and this bright ass light was shone upon me. 

i was stuck.

i knew it wasn't to the standards. but i had a epiphany and proceeded to blackout and spit the truth. 

i knew i couldnt, but i made myself go as a "self punishment"

to see what i can become, and who my comp is.

and he asked me a bunch of questions portraying myself:

"why are you here"

"what can you bring"

"why do we need you"

"what is your greatest and worst weakness"

upon other self evaluating questions that most i answered but some i could not,

for i never asked myself these things...or at least to portray to others.

and in turn. i told him. he knew i knew that it wasn't possible.

i had planned on lying cause i was called out in front of 40+

and that this is something i want. i knew that being there, my face was seen and if i was able to throw my flag of self shame in front of nobodys and i still feel better with myself knowing i keep my word as a man and tell the truth no matter, i know i can and will be better then you all when i cross.

he was more shocked that i told the truth.

i had new found respect from this man and these brothers i wish to call my own.

even though i took this defeat, i came out the winner.

Oh well. there is always next year.

But anywho,

the real reason I'm here. i've finally dedicated myself.

school is FIRST!

i know i said that before but now its meant cause after what happened above.

i've disappointed myself on a whole new level.

but its what i needed. i've gotten back on track.

cut drinking' never smoked alot before, but its pretty much gone now.

no girls unless they come my way, or they are some that i can "entertain" myself to.

i mean i am a guy, and this ain't jail.

After about a week or such of seclusion and some prayer and meditation, I'm a more calmer person.

still sarcastic(sorry you carl thomas emotional ass niggas)

but i find myself listening to more neo-jazz, and surprisingly instrumentals.

they allow me to wander more, catch a tune with myself.

i've scheduled myself to be busy with school on fridays and saturdays(R.A duties etc.)

so social is there but with a academic purpose.

While i was unpacking some mementos and posters to spice up my wack ass room, 

i saw all the cards my family and friends gave me and my pictures.

they want me to succeed more then me.

if i cant do it for myself.

at least for the FEW people who invest in me.

they deserve this. 

Sneakerhead anonymous.

Hi, my name is chris, and im addicted to sneakers.

-Hello chris(chorus)

Well, first and for most.

i just spent 700 on sneakers in about 1 week and some change.

-gasp.

Yea, i know just got back to school too

i had about 300 beans to start for books.

then told the fam the usual "expensive book" tale.

flipped that to about 300 more.

then i got my other check from my second job for 200.

i only got one book so far. got the other two for free.

-so chris, what did you buy???

Ummm, some SB dunks, 

and my holy sweet 12.8 once baby jesus w/ mary and joseph 

and the three wisemen bearing gift in the manger of grails.

but i have started my in-school business selling clothes and shoes.

-oh, well was it worth it?

Yes. cause my mom is coming down saturday with home-cooked food, 

MORE money and....

-and what?

...Brownies...mmmmmm*goes into convulsions* 

-OMG get him water!!!!

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